I did my first formal program tonight at the Cincinnati Nature Center. This was different than the ones I did last weekend, in that tonight, I was up in front of a captive audience.
I can truthfully say that I didn't suck, but there was alot of room for improvement. I sort of ran out of words, (I know, it's bizarre, ME running out of words!) and thank goodness Marc was up there with me. He filled in when I trailed off. What bugs me is that I have TONS of info in my head about raptors. Tonight we had all of our owls (screech, barred and great horned) but I would get stuck and Marc would take over. What really got me crazy is that Marc and Cindy were there, and David Tennant, the former director, was also in the audience and to give a presentation with your peers watching is unnerving, especially when you are new at it like me.
David's wife (A lovely woman, by the way) said I was too hard on myself. But one thing I know about myself is that when I chose to do something, I HAVE to be good at it. I'm not good at everything, God knows, but the things I chose to care about, I jump into wholeheartedly. I am bugged. Annoyed at myself. Next time will be better.